Today I finally got enough courage to 'de-friend' (from my Facebook account), a real life, long term friend who has been gradually but systematically excluding me from her real and online life over the last six months or so.
I'm sure it's probably upset me more than her, but I really have to walk my talk and 'let go' of a friendship that really doesn't even exist any more. A friendship that is bringing me way more angst than joy.
I'm not asking her for explanations, or apologies, or reasons.
There have been many, many opportunities for true friendship, kindness and communication, and the bottom line is that she has been totally 'absent' from my life while I've been through serious illness, celebrations, milestones, business, creativity, life... all totally ignored.
Exclusion and 'ignoring' people is just a subtle form of bullying. And I'm learning that self-respect is more important than being 'liked'. I am ME, and I am ENOUGH.
I'm forgiving her, and me. There's a lesson in this for us both. I'm choosing to send love and to let go of any expectations.
It's painful. I'm sad. I'm breathing and letting go...
